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Wednesday, April 18th, 2007

Subject:Hahaha...and escape artist.....
Time:3:11 pm.
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Thursday, April 5th, 2007

Subject:It wasn't me......
Time:6:06 pm.
Mood:Feisty.
 and that's all that i'm gonna say...... :)
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Monday, March 19th, 2007

Subject:My Name is Bill Board....
Time:1:23 pm.
Mood: indescribable.
I came across a picture that just floors me.  How can someone possibly consider this?  I don't care how much someone loves the food served at a place, it is not worth this.....

http://i53.photobucket.com/albums/g65/saucirossi/Freak.jpg
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Wednesday, March 14th, 2007

Subject:A coouple added verses...
Time:5:42 pm.
Mood: thoughtful.
Pale is the night. Branches rigid in the trees, a light breeze
No stronger than a gentle wisp across your cheek. Your hair
Teasing your shoulders with lucid tendrils, sending shivers
Along your delicate skin, my eyes dilating, drinking in your form.
 
With a curl in your lips and a mischievous glint in your eyes,
You delve deeper within my soul, traversing a barren heart.
My core ambushed by sensations, estranged feelings lingering
Outside my body, threatening to shatter the calm within.
 
Your fingers trace upon my skin, sensations grabbing hold
A twinge upon my spine, never to have been, yet there now.
You moan low in your throat, the satisfaction that you bring
When you scrape a lonely nail across my rigid shoulder blade.
 
Your hair chases waves of pleasure, as it dances across my stomach,
A whimper upon my lips, a groan in my throat, I choke back a gasp
As you whip your hair back, your eyes burning bright, intently staring back.
My bound body releases all apprehension, diving deeper yet, with you. 

You have enveloped my body, and hold hostage a tamed soul,
Mangled in thoughts of self loathing and deceitful ignorance.
You trouble my passive heart, awakening a thriving beast,
One attuned to your sway and exposed only to your eyes.
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Subject:All i can do is shake my head....
Time:4:42 pm.
Mood: busy.
http://abcnews.go.com/Primetime/story?id=2943560&page=1
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Tuesday, March 6th, 2007

Time:11:46 pm.
Mood: exhausted.
I got this icon just for you love......
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Monday, March 5th, 2007

Subject:Sidewalk Chalk Guy
Time:12:09 pm.
I wish i had this talent, it would be fun to do this.
http://gprime.net/images/sidewalkchalkguy/
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Thursday, March 1st, 2007

Time:5:03 am.
Mood: contemplative.
I'm so afraid i've already fucked up. I've fall again so soon. I have found someone that i think the world of. She is intelligent, gorgeous and flat out intoxicating. i find myself lost in her eyes the second i see her and can't bring myself to leave when i must. I spend every waking moment wondering how she is and if there is anything i could possibly do to make her day even better. I find myself doing things i never thought i would, like planning ahead....What???  Yes, i said planning ahead.  I can't say much more than this because she reads this...she's probably the only one that reads this.... Hahaha....i can't hide anything from her right now....  

We had a strange situation this morning. She said something to me and i didn't know how to take it. i think i came off as a dick in my response. I also know that i didn't tell her everything that was on my mind before i left. You know how it feels when you are asked about something that you really haven't though much about, and you don't answer right away because you have to think about it first. Well, i wasn't asked about anything. I want to tell her something, but i have to think about it some more before i just go saying it. I'm usually the "fly by the seat of your pants" type in most things, but when it comes down to relationships, as of lately, i want to take my time. I want to make sure that my decisions convay what it is i really want.

 She doesn't realize that there is very little that she can do wrong in my eyes...and i'm afraid i'll do everything wrong in hers. I want to give her the world, i want to give her everything that she desires and needs, and i'm afraid that i won't be able to do that. Especially when i can't even give us time to grow together. I don't want to rush anything, but i also don't want to let her slip away. I feel like i've known her for a very long time and yet don't know what it is i should do next with her. I am a fucking guy that has fucking sexual desires and i can usually keep them in check. But around her, i'm a floundering virgin, finding out that her belly button isn't were i put it, and that maybe i should wait a little longer till i know where it is that i am supposed to put it.  (Ihope these past couple sentences make sense.) Anyways, i need to get some sleep, hopefully dream about my tender hearted fox and not devouring her within the phoenix i have become......
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Wednesday, February 28th, 2007

Subject:Last night...
Time:12:06 pm.
Mood: chipper.

Last night was a good night.  I was able to convince Felicia to come over and so we can spend some time together during the week. It's pretty crazy how a day apart can really make you miss someone. We went to a bar close to where I live and just chilled with a couple people I know form there. It was nice just having someone to talk to. Then we went back to my place and searched through a list of songs that I will burn to a data disc for her to d/l onto her computer. She got rid of the songs she already has and I had her listen to a few that she did not know. I had her listen to Fever for the Flava by Hot Action Cop and Hey Mister by Custom. Two very interesting songs with a sexual deviance that works.

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Tuesday, February 27th, 2007

Subject:The ABC's of you...
Time:6:51 pm.
Mood: bored.
Give one word with each letter of the alphabet to discribe yourself. 


A - Amorphous
B - Bold
C - Cynical
D - Domineering
E - Energetic
F - Flirtatious
G - Gomer
H - Heretic
I - Infectious
J - Juggernaut
K - Kind
L - Lippy
M - Minimal
N - Neurotic
O - Ostentatious
P - Prim
Q - Quacky
R - Riveting
S - Sly
T - Tried
U - Universal
V - Vital
W - Wondering
X - Xperimental
Y - Yearning
Z – Zealous
 
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Subject:Writer's Block
Time:11:08 am.
Mood:Stumped.
I have a poem that I started and I can't figure out an ending to it...so here it is.  I hope to complete it someday soon.


Pale is the night. Branches rigid in the trees, a light breeze
No stronger than a gentle wisp across your cheek. Your hair
Teasing your shoulders with lucid tendrils, sending shivers
Along your delicate skin. My eyes dilate, drinking in your form.
 
With a curl in you lips and a mischievous glint in your eyes,
You delve deeper within my soul, traversing a barren heart.
My core ambushed by sensations, estranged feelings lingering
Outside my body, threatening to shatter the calm within.
 
You have enveloped my body, and hold hostage a soul asleep,
Mangled in thoughts of self loathing and deceitful ignorance.
You trouble my passive soul, awakening a thriving beast,
One attuned to your sway and exposed through in eyes.
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Monday, February 26th, 2007

Subject:Yeah...well...First time jitters...
Time:7:13 pm.
Mood: lethargic.

Well, I'm having some jitters right now, and I guess it can be expected. I don't really do well at writing out how I feel, unless I’m really upset or just flat out don't know what to think and am venting. So here goes nothing, or is it everything???

I've met this wonderful woman. She's goofy and smiles all the time and just captivates me every time I look at her. I'm not sure what it is, but there is something there that just hits me upside the head when I’m around her. I feel giddy, confused, as if I’m in the presence of someone that deserves so much more than who i am.

I told her today that I felt like a punk. Then she asked me why I said that and I clammed up on her. I just couldn't tell her what I was thinking, and it's because I could tell she felt the same way I did about the crap I did this morning. I know how she felt about sex, and I truly feel the same way about it but as she said, being a fucking typical male I stopped thinking and just started acting. I felt sick to my stomach and distant because I knew that was not what I wanted or how I wanted it. I felt like a major failure this morning and I can't handle feeling like that, let alone expressing myself when I feel like that.

So, yeah, I meet someone that I can relate to in, enjoy being around, and flat out can't get enough of. But my fears rise up from within and scream you don't deserve her you fucking piece of shit....she needs more than you can give, you are nothing more than a shell of a man, attempting to be something more than you are to her.

I told her that "everything I touch, I break", and of course she says that she's been through a lot and that she hasn't broke yet, but I don't want to temp fate with her.... I don't want to let her down or disappoint her just like I did today.

well it's hard to read the monitor right now so I’m going to have to stop for now.....

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Friday, February 23rd, 2007

Subject:A Tree's Past
Time:2:27 pm.
Mood: disappointed.

A Tree's Past

 

Myself naked with turmoil,
my feet rooting, finding fertile soil
the binding of my soul and body
only to stand here for eternity.

Branches scaping my flesh,
twisting and turning,
escaping the bounds of my fears,
leaving me, abandoning all my hopes.

Rain running through my eyes,
the false feeling of tears,
a face stained in need,
no chance for them to dry.

The cool breeze bringing shivers
that leave my muscles aching for release,
the constant reminder of my anxieties,
realizations that hope left fleetingly.

Crashes of lightning above me,
a startling threat of my situation,
numbing my thoughts of who I am,
and why I shouldn't have sprouted. 

I find myself suddenly engulfed, surrounded
by my fears, my lies and deciets, flames of
anger flurry 'round me, I brought this upon
the forest, This place I call home.

I see the foilage, these prisoners along side me,
creeking, swaying around me. The sapplings
looking up to me, not realizing they are
to have my destiny on thier heads.

Oh, how I want this to be different,
how I want to shed my bark and leaves,
treading the grounds in which I bed myself
I am wanting and needing an escape.

I twist and turn, wishing to free my roots
how I wished I had stayed away, having never
desided to bed myself, always fleeing the past
The past I have created for myself, now others. 

I ask myself for the first time....

Why will I make you suffer, Why will I make you cry,
Why will I find myself, a decrepide, burning tree
bound in this forest of my anger, watching you whither
in the flames of my will? Why was it of my own will?

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Subject:On and On, This Is My Life
Time:2:25 pm.
Mood: complacent.

On and On,  This Is My Life

 

We met once, in a dimly lit pool hall.
She blinked, her eyes so deep,
her smile lingering on her lips
and seeming a little eager.

She told me her thoughts on life,
music and the road outta town.
I spoke the same, ending sooner,
i didn't even have an original line.

Well, the night went on, without her,
i did my usual stints of wandering
an emptying bar, my mind saying
i'm not even here, ending my night there. 

When i came to the morning after,
i woke to a cigerette and a wonder.
Did i enjoy the night before, or was it
just her eyes and laughter?

The days went on, my heart growing heavy,
my eyes not focused, my mouth blundering
and for all i was worth, i did not quander
the grandeur of her wondrus allure.

Now I have no faith, i ignore my fate
i go on about my life, letting go, she was
a momentary lapse, that's all i know,
that's all i'll ever know since her.

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Subject:Being in the Void
Time:2:24 pm.
Mood: lonely.
 

Being in the Void

 

My life has become a void,

Drawing in those who are pure and innocent

Them none the wiser as to who I am

Than that of who I know myself to be.

 

With the winds of change, I am there,

Never staying long enough to learn.

Truths of myself hidden behind my eyes,

Even in the mirror of reconciliation.

 

What does it take to know mysefl?

Who has this answer, I seek, if not me?

When will I surrender to that person

And accept the gift I ask for?

 

I fear that I will no longer grow

Into the person I have always been.

I will dwindle down to the root of insanity,

Long enough to devour my heart

with bloodied teeth, I shall end my reality.

 

My soul sores about it all, With nothing to grasp,

The abstract Idealisms within my fading body

Remind me that Im still lost among this concrete

Void that my mind creates of my being.

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Subject:My Life Is A Threat
Time:2:22 pm.
Mood: melancholy.
 

My Life is a Threat

 

Looking about, wandering with an empty soul,

wondering when I put these blue shades on

Isnt it true how love kills hopes, my dreams

Faltering in the sun, yet darker by the moonlight.

 

Ive found many things recently, like how life is truly evil.

That a smile hurts more than the pain of heartache.

Sparkling eyes lie more than you standing right outside my door.

My soul is priceless until I give it away, it rotten to the core.

 

Im the burden I feared Id become, a torment to the public.

As I walk these silent streets, I have the rain trying to cleanse me.

The stench of my existence prevalent to the passer-byes.

How did I find my way to this point in life, this threat to everyone.

 

Im a sad, sad example of how life gives the decrepit to the healthy.

Im proof of how life can play tricks on the hopeful and give them nothing.

My eyes become blind as I look for an answer to your troubles in me,

My heart blackens as the blood dries up and petrifies, the end to my life, your threat.

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Subject:Where I Am
Time:2:20 pm.
Mood: indifferent.
Where I Am


When does it all begin, this life that I am in,
Always giving everything, trading all of my desires.
I will never learn more if I can't find my way
Out of this place, this emptiness that is home.

I am vacant of any dreams,
Never seeing anything, of my own.
I give and give and give,
I give so much, I'm dry
Left here lookin' at my empty hands
Wondering what I'll never try,

This can't be the end,
Lonely where I stand.
So I'm leaving here today
I'm going to find my way
To who I am, never looking back.
I'm never looking back to you.
I'm leaving everything today.

In this world that I have lived,
The people that I knew,
I never thought would change.
My hope is done and through,
Where was I going with you?

I'm never coming back,
Too far I've already gone,
You never knew just what I thought,
You never tried to understand
So I'm never looking back,
I'm thinking, never once of you.

Driving on and on, my life in my hands
This person that I am, is better every day,
Realizing who I was, who I should have been.
Never fading, my dreams rebuilding,
I'm going to find just who I am.
And never looking back to you.
I'm never looking back again.
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